
Today has been an interesting day. I have had the flue for the last week or so so have been unable to go and see Dad. So today was the first visit with him since before I got the flue. When I arrived to see Dad he was in the dinning room waiting for his lunch. He smiled his big smile when I walked up to him. I love that smile. they asked if I wanted to feed him and I told them yes. so I talked to dad and joked around with him. He ate nearly 100% of his lunch. They said his appetite has picked up a little the last week or so. this is good. but it still fluctuates from meal to meal. His extremities are always cold now his feet and hands. he always holds my hand so tight that he doesn't want to let go. it is hard to get him to let go some times.
After lunch Dad was very tired. (eating wears him out) so I took him back to his room put some Pavarotti on for him to listen to oh he loved that. then I went to get a nurse so they could lie him down for a nap. I didn't want to leave. I found myself getting to the door and turning around. Its as if something is pulling on me to stay with him.
A while later they came in to lie him down I still did not want to leave. Dad told me as best as he can how he loves us all. and how he wants us to be kind to each other.
I don't know why I feel so sad because it was a good visit but for some reason I feel a loss.
Dad seems to be doing OK physically mentally he is about 15% understandable. he talks allot to spirits that are in the room and you don't understand most of what is being said but he knows we love him.
I hugged him today (as I usually do) and told him " Dad I love you so much" He made the comment "I don't know why that should mean so much to me but it does. It means allot."
I also thanked him for finding the Gospel and taking our family to the Temple to be sealed so we can be with each other for all eternity. He made the comment he is so glad he did.
This was my visit with Dad today. Very Loving and gentile.
Till another day
Love you all Jo Ellen